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(whine mode on)
Ayo March this year marked a sort of half-jubilee of the epic clusterfuck that saw yours truly slowly turn from an upstanding human being into an anxious remote bedrotting landwhale who considers tossing the trash an expedition into the Unknown. Ugh.
I legit envy people who were sufficiently unfazed by all this and managed to keep their wits and lives in check.
Now we've got a whole truckload of urgent, important, and most of all unpleasant work ahead that could be entirely avoided if I perhaps didn't doomscroll that much for five years.
(whine mode off)

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Jun. 21st, 2023 03:24 pm
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Hurrah, picked up my Pilot 78g today. Still waiting for the ink to arrive, should be soon.
I still have my Faber-Castell Grip with me. It's a fine and solid pen, but w.r.t. line width it doesn't hold a candle to Pilot ones.
Was genuinely surprised that Cavaliers are also made in China. Had one for a few years and it was the best pen I've had. Let's hope 78g doesn't disappoint either.

On a side note, it's surprisingly hard to find anything FP-related here except for endless varieties of junkier line-up of Parker pens, ergo waiting a month for stuff to be delivered by mail with your fingers crossed in hopes the customs wouldn't decide to go nuts on this thing for whatever reason.

Just remembered that I'd left a couple of pens inked back in St Pete. Oh heck, the stuff is probably baked solid in the feeds. When (if? hate thinking about that prospect though) I get back it's going to be a field day with a sonic cleaner. Maybe two days. Maybe them pens are doomed with a one-way ticket to the dumpster. I guess we'll find out.
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Reading Twitter too much lately. This thing is highly addictive — can't seem to do away with it, and it always delivers the dopamine rush.
All the while, all in all, it's all bullshit and there's little to nothing valuable there — mostly folks sharing weird takes and howling bloody murder and hurling crap at each other. Meh, all heat and no light.
Such a waste of time, wish I didn't waste so much time there.
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Crikey, so much stuff went down since last September.
I've honestly been thinking that I had exhausted my lifetime capacity for moving around since a while back when we moved to St Pete.
Perhaps I was wrong, yet it still feels bloody bad anyway. I hate moving, at least that much I can understand about myself.
I've never understood people living out of a suitcase. I'm more of a settle down, dig in, build up kind and all this supposedly pleasant and exciting busywork drives me absolutely nuts.
It's hard enough keeping the lights on without having to think about all that crap and paperwork every several months or so, and Mrs with her dreams of traveling far and wide no matter the cost doesn't help at all with that feeling.
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Spending an entire week in next year's team budget planning meetings is exhausting.
Somehow it's both surprisingly simple and bloody complicated at the same time. Maybe it's due to it being the first time.

I guess it's a big irony of any technical career — you start out of curiosity and thirst for a good technical challenge, thinking it all a nerd's dream job and then you blink and fast-forwarding ten years you find yourself in a position where you spend most days talking sense into other people and ranting to your wife about crazy ass schedule with overlapping meetings. All of it while having to acknowledge you wouldn't really want to dial it back a notch or two because you immediately lose in capacity to take a big steaming dump on bad decisions and shill good ones merrily.

Mixed feelings to be honest, it's all bloody weird. I'm still trying to get a grip on all this. I guess I'll get used to this.
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Woop-woop finally a day that ain't a livid mess of meetings.
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Well, here goes another day full of meetings. Once again no time left for actual work. Duh.
To be honest, even the actual crunch time doesn't leave me anywhere nearly as tired as all the talking out me arse all day long.

Makes me oddly fond of past crunch times, time pressure and debugging galore and all that.
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It's the first day when I managed to get back to working on the code instead of being stuck in a non-stop conflagration of meetings, conducting technical interviews and trying to get stuff going on CI by way of figuratively bashing on it with a hammer for lack of a better analogy. Even if we're talking a couple of hours after the actual working hours, haha. That felt good.

In the meantime, the feeling of apprehension is thick AF somewhere in the back of my mind. I grew up in the nineties, so being deep in shit is something I can work with, but I must admit the sheer uncertainty of this scale is freaking me out of my wits despite my best attempts at pushing it down.

Monday

Apr. 18th, 2022 02:31 pm
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Whoever invented the idea that all the important meetings and decision-making should take place on Monday morning will burn in hell for all eternity. Damn, I hate Mondays.

I'm considering a sinister vengeance by way of setting up an hour-long lets-discuss-this-shit-in-depth kind of meeting on Friday at 5pm.
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A'ight, almost two months in. The world apparently didn't end, peeps ain't yet bashing on each other with sticks over a dead crow, the sugar sort of returned to stores pretty fast once anti-monopoly service suddenly got out of its perpetual stupor. Nor are there any black vans with BREAD decal on the side snatching alleged thought-criminals like some doom-wailed. All in all, I'd say day-to-day business-as-usual is mostly still in place for all it's worth. Righty-o, I ain't no prophet, and two months is just the beginning, so I ain't insisting anything, just observing the immediate surroundings at the moment.

On that note, another lad from our team is leaving for greener pastures at the end of the month. That means we're going to have to work more due to having only a skeleton team in place and lots of on-boarding is, again, going to fall on whoever remains. Damn. I haven't had this many meetings per day in my entire career I think. It gets to a point where you have to postpone actual work way off into the evening. We're hiring like crazy though, so I hope it will level out a bit soon.
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Peeps buying out all the sugar is the one thing I can understand — it's all 90's trauma. I still remember those insane 50-kilo sacks in the larder and digging up more sugar out of them every once in a while. Weird how past crisis reactions become a reflex of sorts.

What bugs me now is why the bloody hell everyone is stockpiling pillows?! And blankets. I mean, I went to a store yesterday, and it was chock-full and half the peeps are buying the goddamn pillows. I saw an elderly woman at the entrance who was hauling SEVEN pillows. Dear god.

Aside from that, the observation is simple — the goods that were affordable before are either disappearing or attaining, quite frankly, an astronomical quality to their pricing. There is some replacement, obviously Chinese, but given the shrinking offer, the good Chinese stuff is now expensive, even after you adjust for wrecked ruble rates, and there are lots of Chinese goods appearing with the level of no-name low-quality hitting all-time high. Duh.

I wonder how low we will sink.
Maybe it's high time to start learning some basic Chinese.
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Well, deep into shit it is.
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 Phew. Been hell of a week, with all the interviewing and non-stop bug-fixing.

The one peculiar thing about all sorts of crunch times is that despite having been dead tired since halfway into it, it's always somewhat annoyingly hard to stop. One day it's all rush and crazy, the next evening it's suddenly all quiet and you realize that the last thing planned is done, half the team is leaving for vacation, the other half ranges anywhere between drooling in front of TV and going on a small weekend bender.

And yet you still check every fifteen minutes in case there's a new blocker issue or new code review or lurking around the codebase or issue tracker to find something to lay your hands on and its well past midnight already.

None of it is really productive — at this point, frenetic checking doesn't yield any useful leads, and one is definitely in no shape to approach the mountain of technical debt that's been stinking around for the last couple of years.

In that kinda mood the best thing IMO is to drop it and stay away from the bloody keyboard at least for the weekend or so.

Weather

Jul. 28th, 2021 09:29 pm
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At long last, it's raining outside! And cooling down while at it. Sweet mother of mercy, I thought this crap was going to last 'till mid-August.
Finally, I'll b able to keep up with doctor's orders on walking my ten clicks a day without sweating like a pig slow-roasting over a pit fire.
Also, not waking up drenched is nice for a change.

I really gotta stop kicking the can down the road with the AC installation.
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Much as I hate to admit it, but being stuck at home and not doing anything useful aside from work makes me stupidly anxious and agitated really quick, like in a matter of a few days. You know, the "shit, something's gotta give" kind of mood.

Probably the same reason I have always been having a hard time chilling on vacation for more than a week.

Weather

Jul. 26th, 2021 06:10 pm
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 Well, looks like we're back to the baking oven type of weather, if only for a couple of days.

Wine

Jul. 26th, 2021 11:55 am
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Had some pretty good time celebrating my birthday. The wine was especially good -- I've stumbled onto a bottle of an off-dry Rhoditis at the grocery store and it turned out to be one of the best whites I've had in a long while, and for $10 at that.

Oddly enough, two glasses were quite enough to support the mood. Alas, it was also enough to induce a hangover, however minor. Health concerns aside, I guess drinking once in a blue moon has its benefits -- it sure does get a lot cheaper for all the same experience.
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 Reading random stuff on DW is oddly satisfying.

It actually feels good to read random whatever written by random but real people about random stuff going on in their lives rather than a recommendation feed chock-full of marketed crap saddled with slot machine mechanics to boot.

Here you take it or leave it — read some, skip some, leave some for later. Chill experience.
The mainstream social media? Oh hell no boyo, you're gonna be scrolling that feed non-stop out of FOMO until it makes you nauseous.

I guess this was the best thing about LJ back before it went full-on into an attention merchantry attempt that pretty much killed it.
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Been pondering going standalone with a handwritten static site generator.

Being a mammoth from the last century, the first thing that came to mind was writing stuff in stiff XML and then generating html/gemini/rss/dw-xpost with the generators from a single source. It all looked fine in my head until I've found out that most XSLT processors only support XSLT 1.0 and XPath 1.0, which got me really pissed. The only one that supports newer editions is Saxon, and it's only JS/.Net/Java, none of which are my bag of beans.

Then figured writing posts in XML is mighty inconvenient and something easier less verbose is necessary, like Markdown or something.

Ended up finding a wicked MD parser written in pure C: https://github.com/mity/md4c
SAX model, blazing fast, not hard to hack on, easy to bind to other languages if the need arises, absolutely wicked!

Instead of making a move on any of that setup though, I ended up spending the entire evening yesterday making a knot pattern in pure CSS. Back in the day it took me like three days, and now, with calc() and var() this stuff is far less tedious.
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 At long last the heat has tuned down back to around +20°C.

That July heat dome was nasty to the point of driving us out of our apartment and into a hotel room blessed with AC for a week.

Needless to say, with that AC blasting for days on end on the lowest setting available the room was not unlike a freezer, and guess what? Yeah, I've managed to catch a bona fide cold right at the end of our stay. In the middle of a frigging pandemic, in between two vaccine shots, during the hottest weather of the last decade, I've managed to get a bloody cold, cough and all.

The sick leave ended with the arrival of a negative PCR result, but I still can't go back to the office yet — I've still got the damn cough (smoking all the way through a cold and further on was a bad idea after all) and every time I cough the folks at the office have the livid crap scared out of them and run straight to HR, screaming bloody murder and asking them to kick me out to WFH and as far as I've found out no amount of PCR testing is going to convince them to unclench their butts.

Well, vox populi! Not much I can do about it, so I'm stuck at home for another week, trying to quit smoking and all.

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